Throughout my blog, I focus on hope and positivity. Everyone has faced a challenge at some point their lifetime. Challenges can be big or small, approaching the challenge and learning from it is what is important. As a cancer survivor, I have good days and bad days, just like anybody else. Some days are harder than others. Tip#8, “It’s Ok To Not Be Ok” is something I tend to forget. I appreciate each day that I am given, but sometimes I am very hard on myself and expect things to be the way they were BEFORE caner.
The evening of Friday the 13th in April was one of those times when I had to remind myself “It’s Ok To Not Be OK”. I was taking a nice relaxing bubble bath and listening to spa music. I was somewhat mediating and instead of relaxing, tears began to fill my eyes. I had a case of a crying spell. I started thinking about my two babies in heaven, about having a baby in the future and the way I look AFTER cancer. When I look in the mirror, sometimes I don’t recognize myself. The crying spell lasted for a bit, but I felt much better afterwards.